Mission: Find My Seat at the Table (Without Losing My Mind)
Man… let me tell you something.
When I graduated in February, I knew I was on the right path. Like deep-down, soul-level knew. This wasn’t just school—it felt like purpose.
I had set a goal for myself: graduate with at least a 3.75 GPA.
Tell me why I ended up finishing with a 4.0… and Salutatorian?!
Yeah… I did that. 🙌🏾
I was overjoyed. Proud. Relieved. All of it. In my mind, I’m thinking: “Okay, God… I did my part. Doors should be swinging open any minute now.”
Welp…
Here I am, two months later… still unemployed.
Welcome to the Plot Twist
Now don’t get me wrong—I understand the landscape.
We’re in a weird time. Companies are investing in AI, people are nervous about job security, and the industry feels like it’s shifting under our feet. But honestly? This isn’t the first time we’ve been here. Remember when computers came in, and everybody thought jobs were over? Yeah… we adapted.
So now, I’m looking at AI like:
Am I a little nervous? Yes.
Am I also kind of excited? Also yes.
Because if I’m being honest… I’ve been wanting to create my own content for a long time. And this might actually be the tool that helps me do it faster and smarter. So instead of running from it… I’m learning how to run with it.
The Job Market is Ghetto (Let’s Just Say It)
Now let’s talk about this part…The job market right now? Whew. It is not for the weak. I’ve applied to about 80 positions since December. Eighty. You would think I’d have options lined up like a buffet. Nope. I’ve had maybe 3–4 interviews… and the rest?
Silence
Or a rejection email that shows up months later like, “Hey girl… just circling back to say no.”
Like… THANK YOU?? 😅 And here’s the part that hits deeper…
As a Black woman in this space, I’m watching conversations around DEI shift, change, and honestly—sometimes get watered down or dismissed altogether. Meanwhile, we know why DEI existed in the first place. Because the playing field was never equal. Still isn’t. And yet… here I am. Highly skilled. Proven. Experienced. Waiting.
But Let Me Be Clear…
I’m not confused about what I want anymore. That part? Is crystal clear.
I want to be in leadership.
I want to help develop content that reflects real people, real stories, real communities.
Not just what sells…but what matters. And here’s the truth I had to sit with: I’ve driven a lot of cars in my career. Different roles. Different lanes. Different speeds. But now? I don’t want just any car.
👉🏾 I want my dream car.
👉🏾 I want to feel what it’s like to be exactly where I’m supposed to be.
And I’m not settling just because it’s taking longer than I expected.
Confidence Check
Now let’s be real…In the beginning, I questioned myself.
I was like:
“Why am I not being chosen?”
“With my experience… what am I missing?”
But something shifted after I graduated. That 4.0? That discipline? That follow-through?
It reminded me:
👉🏾 I don’t just show up… I exceed. So no—my confidence isn’t broken.
Even when I see peers landing roles…I don’t feel bitter. I genuinely think:
“That’s their time. And I hope they thrive.”
Because I know something important:
👉🏾 My time is coming.
👉🏾 It’s just not my time… yet.
Faith + Work (Because We Do Both Over Here)
Let me not pretend like everything is easy. Because it’s not. I need income.
I have responsibilities. This season is stretching me in ways I didn’t plan for. But I’m grounded in this: I’m putting it in God’s hands…while still doing the work. Because faith without works? That’s just optimism.
So I’m:
Applying
Networking
Learning
Building
Creating
And now… writing.
Here’s the Truth
Maybe this season isn’t a setback. Maybe it’s alignment. Maybe I’m not being rejected…Maybe I’m being redirected to something bigger than I originally planned. So for now? I’m staying the course. Working on my mission. And trusting that when the right door opens…It won’t just be a job.
It’ll be exactly where I’m meant to be.
